I realise I haven’t written a post in a while, there are many reasons for this, apart from me just being very lazy. In the past few months a lot of things have changed.

1. I had my dreaded group project to finish, with many many late nights in the lab. Then of course were the third year exams. At the time every exam seemed like a nightmare, as no matter how much studying I did, it never felt like it was enough. I finally got my results sitting at an Internet kiosk in San Miguel, Ibiza, and saying I was pleasently surprised would be somewhat of an understatement. I really was very pleased with my results this year.
2. As mentioned before, I went on holiday to Ibiza for a week with Matt. It was such a great break, especially as for a time I didn’t think we would manage to get away. Just being able to sit on a sunbed and read books in the sun for a week was exactly what I needed. The fact that all our alcohol and food was free was just a bonus…
3. At the end of last term my flat mate decided to move out, after 2 years of living in the flat with me and a year of us being in Halls together. Although not entirely unexpected it was still a shock to find me looking for a new flatmate, after so long. Even with a months notice it was still a very emotional day when she moved out.
4. I started work for IBM, Greenock, at the end of June. So far I am having a really good time, meeting loads of new people and learning loads.

So thats the basic roundup, of my life since my last post.

The vacancy in the flat was one of these confusing things. I obviously needed a new flatmate to help pay the bills, I needed someone I could rely on and who I would get on with. I sent out messages to practically everyone I knew in Glasgow, but after a few weeks and only one viewing I started to get a down heartened about the whole thing.

You see it seemed to me like there was really only one obvious solution, but due to many different factors, I just let it go. In my head though it kept coming back to me, what if Matt moved in? It was one of those beautiful romantic ideas, and the thought of making that sort of committment appealed to me. We could move furniture around, go on shopping trips to Ikea, buy pictures for the walls, all that sort of stuff that just hits you at a certain age (although maybe with guys a little older).

Matt finally brought it up with me and it seemed that everything had fallen into place. The problem was after a couple of days I got freaked, I was 20, what the hell was I doing settling down??? I’m not afraid to admit my childishness did cause problems between me and Matt, as I suppose is a little apparent in one of his more recent posts about the age difference. The thing was after I got over the intial hurdle of telling my parents, everything seemed to fall back into place again for me although this time a little more realistic. There was still the hopes of Ikea and coming home to someone, but know I realised why this was something I had to do.

And it wasn’t what I expected, I didn’t have to let Matt move in because I needed a new flatmate and he was the “easy” option, or because I felt I needed to “tie” him to me now that he is yet again going out into the scary world of work and I might lose him, it was simply because I love him and because I want to live with him and take that step.

So as of 12 midnight tonight Matt is my official flatmate, the contract has been signed the rent sorted and yesterday we started moving in some (more) of his stuff. Last night I cooked us a fancy dinner as part of the whole moving in thing and then I gave him his moving in present. So now both of our names are on the front door….

I feel that somehow I have grown up even over the past few weeks, but I’m happy with that. I’m really happy for where I am heading and all the choices and changes (although most unnoticable to most people) I have made over the past year.

Keep having fun peeps, hope to keep up with the posting now.

Lauren xxx